2 1/2 weeks ago I had my first day as an employee for a medical system. Tomorrow, after lots of site visits and training, I will have my first day in my library. Or Resource Center. Whatever you want to call it, it’s the space that I was hired to manage and make valuable. There are a few things making this evening feel like Christmas Eve:
- This is my first “real” job.
- I will be the first person working in this brand new library in a brand new hospital.
- However, I will not be completely (forever) alone; I have an amazing group of fellow librarians elsewhere in the system to support me even as I am “solo” within my locale.
- I am a hospital librarian.
I just want to focus on the first and fourth bullets for a second. Because I want to come back to this post in a year and see how it’s going. But as it stands right now, I’ve realized that this is what I’ve been working towards for the last 5-6 years and I’ve “done it”. Maybe it’s weird to aspire to a job that put me in so much debt and doesn’t pay *that* much. but I put blood, sweat, and tears (lots and lots of tears) into this, and in the end, I’m pretty sure I’ve discovered that it’s worth it. I guess maybe i shouldn’t say that yet, since I haven’t actually had even a day in my space, but I do know that I have no regrets. And that was the most terrifying thing, through the grief that kept me from making friends through much of library school and then the years apart from people I love, that it might not be worth it. And I knew I wouldn’t know until I reached a certain point. That point is right now. I think i did a pretty good job of living life, and if it really hadn’t been worth it and I had left the field, I would have been able to move on because I do have amazing friends and family who inspire and motivate me, and things I love doing outside of my career. But it is a an amazingly good feeling to be here and say I’m pretty damn happy to be a hospital librarian. It feels right, you know?
And so tomorrow I will see if I have any furniture and start to document the life of a new medlib in a new library. Things of more substance than the above personal “yes!” moment, like how much free stuff you can get from NIH. And how to build a collection from nothing. And thoughts on going to non-librarian professional conferences. And how an iPad can be incorporated into a medlib’s daily routine…Okay, you might have to wait a few paychecks for that last one, but it’s coming. 🙂 And I’d love to have you along for the ride!